Wow I let this blog fall on the wayside. Well I'm here to do two things.
1.Cucalorus - I've volunteered at Cucalorus for three years so far. Each time I get free alcohol, meet interesting people, and see good films. This year the one movie I really wanted to see was canceled (World of Tomorrow Pt.2). I enjoyed the few I saw anyways. Especially Bodied and Road Movie. In the end Cucalorus was a nice respite from the storm in my life.
2. Final Thoughts - I think some part of me fell into a big depression this semester. My social structures crumbled, I couldn't sleep, I felt unloved for the majority of the time, and whenever I looked into the eyes of my fellow man I saw nothing. But as things progressed I had this film to work on. It kept me moving and searching, and I honestly think it was the only thing doing so. My Mom said that I seemed more driven in the past few months than any other moment in my life. Honestly its because through my own retreat, I had nothing left but my work. Out of this I got a pretty decent film. I'm proud of it to an extent. I wish I had more people give me their thoughts on it, but I feel like asking for feedback at this stage would be wishy washy (also in my experience most feedback is BS while the good feedback one gets is few and far between).
My crew was excellent this semester. They helped me when they could and for the most part they were patient and forward driving. I have to thank them for what they gave me. I hope that I didn't take too much out of them. I'm going on break now, hopefully I can get my head straight in that time, maybe write out some demons.
See ya when I get back.
John Knox Gray
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwKfOEelzOQ
